My heart swarms with thoughts that sadden me!
They keep pressing onto me. Pressure, pressure!
Their presence demanding, I shove them away;
Though with time never around and energy never ample!
Pushing them to the back of my mind seems a trick;
And everything seems to get worse and worse!
My thoughts drift to my past, the choices I made while there!
They keep asking whether they’re-
correct? Or wrong? Or connect?
Their answer lingers on my mind! Did I do what was right?
Oh, I feel I lack the strength to face those decisions of mine…
To look into the sun that was given birth to my shadow,
That doesn’t help me to know what was right anymore…
But then I look to the friends that I have and their problems.
They are just like me about life and love!
Questions some more and then another!
They all have their problems, their insecurities, their losses!
And I have helped them to find their answers too.
But now it is my turn, and my friends are also there for me!
There to cry, to share, and most of all, to hug when I need it the most!! …