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When I hear this sound that awakens me, intimidating its way into my cloistered night, I write…


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“BONJOUR TRISTESSE”

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I walked along the lonely path of life;

But blindness hurt, and pain was every strife;

For where to go I did not know;

Nor how to live through every blow!!

I turned and searched and searched and turned.

I found no help, no voice I heard.

Yet, then I saw the light of love-

Had come to me! You were my love…

Our destinies together went;

And mine was love, and only love.

How could I doubt my happiness?

And now it is dark, and now it is sad!

Were went the light of light of love I had?

Were went our love?

Bonjour tristesse!! …

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Ellie


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“SATAN’S CRIMSON VICTORY”

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Alone, it seems.

With blood’s stained dreams.

And nights of fear.

With teary streams that leave-

My soul secluded.

No assistance comes to me,

To tease my breath.

I can not look to see-

The angels calling out to me;

As SATAN’S CRIMSON VICTORY,

Takes all in precious death!! …

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Ellie

 


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“ORANGE PIE IN THE SKY”

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A cool breeze! BABY BLUE bubbles in the bathtub of-

Cherries, roses! RED our hearts!!

The sun in the sky, YELLOW daisies, bananas;

It is like melted CHOCOLATE BROWN in my mouth.

It is like roses blooming PINK, in the autumn.

It is like pumpkin ORANGE PIE in the sky!

Smoky night, BLACK CATS, tarantula!! …

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Ellie


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“EMOTION BOTTLED UP”

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My thoughts are nuzzled-

Deep inside, tucked faraway.

They are safe there!

They will never be found-

In the bottomless pit of my stomach…

People say it isn’t right to keep feelings-

Of bought emotion bottled up;

Fermenting painfully within…

But I say, nobody understands me!

Nobody feels my pain.

Nobody tries to either.

My daddy…

Hopefully one day-

I will swallow my pride,

Get over my fears,

And spill my guts… completely!

That is the day-

When I will be finally able-

To live again!! …

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Ellie


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“CAN’T SLEEP”

Father, my precious dad, this is how I felt after your death. Tears still flow at unseen places. I can’t get over it as some people tell me. Because of my political asylum, I could not even go to the funeral. We just had our phone calls. Dad I miss you. Your first child. You called me the light of your eyes. Bye dad. Rest in peace…

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Lost in the river of unforeseen quarrels,

Drowning below some untold dreams;

Feeling within, the heartache of sorrows,

Searching for meaning in holding back screams’

Using as weapons, the renegade stories;

Holding for ransom, a love, yet unforeseen;

Unspoken forgiveness, false passion is borrowed;

Sharing alone, a slow dying heartbeat.

Can’t sleep!! …

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Ellie


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“THE BRIGHTEST HUE”

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I walk alone on this dusty trail.

Feeling so cold, as a baby so frail.

Ahead in the darkness, the stillness of the night,

A vision of perfection, silhouette in the light.

The moon ponders over this shadow of a man,

Laughing at the success of his plan.

Being unknowing pawn in the game,

I confront this stranger and ask his name.

To look into his eyes, embraces my speech…

Our lips meet, our hearts reach.

Standing together at dawn’s first light,

He whispers my name, my heart takes flight.

For the first time in the centuries of war,

Someone has entered and unlooked the door.

The chains fall silently! At last I am free.

He speaks of love, of a life with me.

The sun rises, glowing its brightest hue,

To signify the re-birth, my life anew.

I have found my God, and my heaven with you!! …

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Ellie


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“THE INVITATION”

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The last dreary days of winter-

Have silently slipped away;

And spring sends out invitation-

For all to come to the play!!!

The stage is a lawn of green velvet.

Curtains are soft willows swaying.

The spot light, the warm summer seen.

The actors are young children playing!!

The birds are the band.

They strike a note.

Little flowers come forth so excited,

As we watch the birth of another spring.

I’m so glad that I was invited!! …

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Ellie


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“ONLY YOU”

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I could be your worst nightmare!

I could be all your hopes and aspiration!

I could be anything that you want me to be.

And all you have to do, is just dream about them…

I could let you fly up in the sky!

I could let you dive in the deepest oceans.

I could let you go in the center of earth.

I could let you soar in space and visit distant planets.

I am only a dream.

It’s only you who could fulfill all of this…

Only you!! …

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Ellie


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“SO LAME”

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I look beneath your disguise!

I see deep within your eyes.

A web of lies which you have spun;

But you are not the only one;

For I, too wear a mask;

And try desperately to cover up my past…

We are so lame;

And yet so much the same.

I’m tired of playing life’s sick, twisted game.

I want you to see me;

For I’ve become blind.

Touch my heart;

Clear my mind;

Free my soul;

For all are tied,

With unseen ropes that bind!! …

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Ellie


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“WHY DADDY!!”

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I was not going to choose you!

Strange! I was away from you,

It was affair of my heart.

It was my heart that choose you daddy.

It was my heart that began admire you.

I couldn’t change my heart’s way.

You know daddy, my heart was fixated on you.

I did not want to think about you.

It’s you that changed my style of life!

Yes, indeed, I am a master of daddy, daughter love.

But I am afraid that means more.

Not only suffering for lack,

The lack of not hugging you.

But I an an optimist, not yet,

And I don’t like my verse.

I love you daddy.

Why did you leave us… Too soon

In loving memory of my dad who died only 9 hour ago, so sudden, as if he had an urgency to meet with God. He has special place in heaven.What all of us, (my family, children, sisters, brothers specially my mom is going to do without you. Daddy I miss you. I am in pain. I can’t eat or sleep. Help me dad from Heaven.

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Ellie